Hello everyone! It seems it has been a while since I published an update on Sunday to let you know what is going on and what my plans are for the future. I apologize for not posting the past couple of weeks.
First off, I have no earth-shattering news to share with you all tonight. Life has been, how can I say it, very real lately. What I mean by that is that I have not had time to do genealogy, research, scanning, or much of anything else lately. Real life has been happening.
The biggest thing I am dealing with at the moment is that I feel completely and utterly lost without my baby girl being here. My wife has said it is different than when my son went into the Marines 6 years ago but it’s really not that different. My son and I were close at that time, probably closer than we have ever been. It was extremely hard on me and I was a totally different person until I saw him at his graduation. My baby girl and I have become so much closer over the last year or so. Her leaving for boot camp has once again prompted that reality that I really have no control over their life anymore. My kiddos, who I have loved and cared for and protected as best I can, are now in someone else’s hands and I have become a secondary figure in their life!
I’ve always tried to be tough. Don’t show my emotions or any weaknesses. That’s what the man is supposed to do, right? As I get older it becomes so much harder! For so many years I have had a purpose in my life. I work hard so that I can try to give my kids the things they desire. Now, I sometimes find myself feeling like I don’t have a purpose anymore. I know, that’s just me being emo or at least that is what my baby girl would say.
Think about it though, people talk about how hard it is to be a parent but what they fail to tell you about is how hard it is to let go! I am experiencing that once again this summer!
Anyways, I am sorry that I have wondered off in that direction but sometimes it helps to just write down what I feel and what better place than my blog? No one really reads it and it’s a perfect way to vent.
I promise I will try to be more active soon. I simply ask that patience would be granted to all my readers. I have lots of ideas and plans but I just don’t have the motivation to do anything at the moment.
Thanks for putting up with my ramblings. To all the families who have loved ones serving in the military or preparing to do so, I wish you all peace and comfort. I know how it feels to be so proud and so lonely at the same time!
Have a great week everyone!